well, anyways.
It’s been a very long time since ive updated.
family shit, stressFULL but im not letting it stress me out anymore! Last night i finished up my letter to tommy and one of the memories i included was about billy telling me that stress was undeserving of my brain.
i miss billy so much at work, and i cant believe he’s gone. its weird to not have him there to make me laugh, or to talk to about my family. i really miss the guy, he was like my older brother.
ive been pushing all the billy stuff out of my brain. i let myself cry when i found out, and that was the last time. i didnt go to his funeral, or the wake, for fear of crying. but last night when i was writing tommy’s letter i let it all go. i dont know how long i sat there drowning myself in emotions.
the letter is completely truthful, and i hope it puts billy in the light he deserves. what i hope most of all is that tommy understands that at the end billy was completely different from who he’d been to everyone at work.
he wasnt just my manager, or my co-worker, he was my big brother and im tearing up now so ill have to stop typing now.
OVER YOU
OVER YOU
